Well I'm 36 weeks today and things are going pretty well, besides the weird nausea I've had for about 2 days now. Baby E isn't officially due for another 4 weeks, but I just know that she's going to be early. I'm effacing more and having more braxton hicks, so if she can just stay in there until wednesday of next week, our midwife will allow us to birth her baby at home. Anytime before 37 weeks is considered somewhat of a high risk and for safety reasons, many midwives won't attend home births at that time, but will accompany the mother to the hospital instead.
Gosh time has flown by, just like everyone said it would. Time did not fly when I was sick.. in fact, I didn't even feel pregnant when I was sick. It just felt like I had a disease. When things started to get bearable, I was fairly pregnant and didn't have much longer to go. I'm sure that these next 4 weeks might creep by, but I saved almost everything for the last minute since I was physically incapable of doing it anyway. I'm still very easily winded and forget bending over.. but I'm slowly trying to get things done here and there, even if it's just making mental lists and trying to be more positive. Prenatal depression has just about shut me down and I realize I haven't been posting much lately. There just hasn't been a lot to talk about and I really can't force myself to write about how amazing I'm feeling when I'm not. I guess that's why I'm blogging. It doesn't matter what I write, really; what matters is that I'm actually writing and sharing and being more brave about expressing my thoughts.
My dear friends are offering their help to get me ready for this baby and I can't say how much I appreciate it. Bianca has helped me do laundry and put clothes away each time she's been out here, and Allison helped me with laundry last week before the baby shower. I have yet to get back to some folks who have offered to help because I need to figure out what they can actually do right now.. mostly we need to get our bedroom re-organized; including moving furniture, moving clothes around, and putting baby clothes away. Sounds like fun, right? You might wonder, how hard could this possibly be, but when you're 8 months pregnant, your baby's head is wedged in your pelvis, and you have virtually no air capacity, moving around is hard!
I want to give a big thank you to all the people who made it to the baby shower 1.0 last weekend. Although it's not what I planned at all and about 6 of the 35 people showed up, everyone understood how sad I was and gave me so much support that day.. It was really a special day just to have close friends there to cheer me up and have a good time with.
Please forgive me for not posting a photo right now.. I am not feeling good tonight and I just keep forgetting to take one. My brain is so fried and I can hardly remember where anything is or what time we need to be some place.
I'm getting more and more excited about the birth and less scared about everything. I really think my body will do just fine and I will be able to stay calm enough to cope with the pain. As soon as we get back from Katsucon, I need to get the final birth supplies ready and have my mom start bagging and labeling everything for my midwife. We also need to hang lights in the window in preparation for her arrival. My parents' house is set in the bottom of a little hill and it's hard to see it from the road, especially if it's snowing or raining. Just talking about this is surreal.. I can't believe she's almost here. I know how different our lives will be, but I can't wait for it all and Dave can't either. The sleepless nights, the sore boobs, the constant snuggling and holding, the diapers, the shushing, everything. Ask me if I like it in 6 weeks, I might tell you differently.. but right now I can't wait.
This weekend is Katsucon and we're leaving tomorrow night. Bianca's flight got canceled so I'm picking her up in about an hour, instead of tomorrow morning. She has been a HUGE help at conventions when I need food and Dave has to stay at the table and for all sorts of other situations. I will be most immobile this weekend and I am so thankful that she is coming with us. The blizzard in DC is letting up tonight and hopefully there will be no snow for the rest of the weekend so we can safely get there and get back. We've got the AWD Audi so I'm sure we'll get there just fine.
Might post tomorrow before we leave, otherwise I'll update with photos from the convention as soon we get back. Have a good weekend :)
~Christine
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